The word ‘current’ came up because I was thinking about a workshop, a permanent, eternal subsistence workshop, because there is an eternal need for people to do work while subsisting. It has to last for many generations, while many people use the workshop. I was thinking about mills and factories, and how they have ‘current,’ whether it is from the stream, or from the electricity. That made me think of current as ‘the available stream of force.’ I read Low Tech Magazine, so I have some awareness of mechanical machines that aren’t using modern technology, things like machines that transmit the force of rotational motion over long distances. There was this thing, I don’t know what it was called, where it started from a mill in a creek, but it
transferred the force over nearby fields, with some kind of sticks or ropes lined up that were swinging back and forth, end to end. I could ask chatgpt. It would probably find it right away.
Currency is an artificial money force, a supply. It is current as an abstraction, current as a supply of a commodity. It is the current of the commodity with the least marginal utility, or the greatest, or I forget what – I’m confused. Gold, precious metals, money metals. One additional piece of gold will always have more utility – that’s up to a point. When you are starving on a desert island, that equation won’t help you. It isn’t the same thing as subsistence. It’s been a long time since I read any books about economics, and back then, I was under the influence of various herbal drug residue contaminations that affected my mind.
I was thinking about wool, and how I want to have ‘a wool blanket on every desktop,’ inspired by Bill Gates’ personal computer on every desktop. I bought some wool, but on this particular trip, all of the wool happened to be ‘sad beige,’ and there was none that was a bright color. I found some that was brightly colored a few weeks ago, but one thing came from Uruguay, and it had a chemical on it, like the chemical pesticide that was on the ‘tapestry wool yarn’ that I bought and made a scarf out of, which isn’t finished. I can feel the pesticide when it touches my skin. I tried washing it, but I didn’t have the degreaser at the time. Now I do – it’s in my car – I got it out of the trailer. I could try again with degreaser. I treat wool as utilitarian, and if it says ‘dry clean only,’ that means it’s being treated as a luxury item, which is unrealistic and impractical. Wool is NOT a luxury item. It is a PRACTICAL item. I have been thinking that maybe, wool shouldn’t shrink, and if it does, you’ve done something wrong. Maybe felted wool is already fully shrunken.
I have been trying to make a long-term plan. Life is unbearable, because I have to work long hours standing up, for little pay, and my feet are in AGONIZING pain by the end of the day. I need new shoes, and also, I have been relentlessly gaining weight, which I believe is probably caused by secondhand exposure to the residues of drugs, which might be anti-anxiety drugs, I’m not sure, at some of the places where I’ve had to go. I can’t wash my clothes often enough, with degreaser, or buy new clothes, to get rid of it. I can’t decontaminate as well as I need to, in order to test this theory.
I understand, from nutrition class, that it is normal for a
middle-aged person to gain a moderate amount of weight and have a ‘matronly’ shaped body, at my age. This was considered healthy, and it indicated a greater likelihood of survival. Death was correlated with being too skinny and losing weight. Survival was correlated with having a moderate amount of weight gain, without being morbidly obese. That is exactly where I am. But still, my feet probably hurt more because I have gained some weight. I also need to test whether or not this horrible, disgusting hair conditioner is going through my skin and causing inflammation in my knee joints. It has a disgusting grease that gets on my skin and goes through it. I couldn’t buy my usual conditioner because they’re not selling it anymore at local stores. I don’t know whether or not Wegmans has it, but that’s in State College and it’s a long drive. I would have to go there, or order it online.
I was thinking of organ meats. I had been thinking of my long-term plan, which involved a permanent, eternal, safe workshop that could be used for SUBSISTENCE, such as processing meats for your own use. Anything at all that you need to build, use, or process could be done in this eternal subsistence workshop, which would exist after my death, and forever, and would have a legal TRUST associated with it, requiring that all future owners must use this eternal workshop, on this piece of land, for this purpose only, like a church. I always want to have a legal trust with every business that I create. I HATE people who ‘get rich quick’ by making something like the Panera bread company, where they had ‘no artificial colors or flavors’ and so on, only to sell it out to a chemical company that WANTS to include EVERY possible artificial color and flavor, like when Breyers Ice Cream got bought out by Unilever, the very DEFINITION of ‘a chemical company.’ *IT IS* a chemical company, EXPLICITLY. It bought Breyers Ice Cream, the company that was anti-chemical. I refuse to let this happen to my Binns Woolen Mills after I die. Binns Woolen Mills must use only 100% wool and natural fiber, and I am slightly frowning upon the huge amount of ramie-cotton blended fiber sweaters, found at Goodwill and other thrift stores, which come from China. It’s natural fiber, and technically, ramie is a natural fiber, which was traditionally produced in Asia (I accidentally wrote ‘rayon,’ which is something else – ramie and rayon are different things). But there’s an enormous amount of this ramie-cotton blend yarn, made into these junky, decorative holiday sweaters, and I have bought them from time to time because they are brightly colored, but they provide little or no warmth in the cold, so I haven’t bought any recently. This
ramie-cotton blend yarn, for sweaters, isn’t very warm. I am focused on acquiring the HIGHEST WARMTH DENSITY fabric, which is wool, and even better, that muskox wool.
I want to get the wool from non-hybrid pure American bison. I would also love bighorn sheep and mountain goats, because both of those are native, but they live out west. The bison did live here in
Pennsylvania. What about native elk? Do native elk produce wool? I don’t have access to any elk. I also don’t know whether native whitetail deer can be brushed to remove a fluffy undercoating that would be like wool. Ideally, I’d like to get tamed native animals, which are purebloods, not hybrids and not really domesticated.
Anyway, any building or organization that I make will have a legal trust of some sort that will apply after I am dead and gone, and it will apply to any future owners. All future owners will be required to obey the rules of this trust, and if they break them, then they are legally required to sacrifice the ‘goodwill’ of the name, so that you are no longer legally allowed to call yourself ‘Binns Woolen Mills’ if you are blending nylon with wool, or whatever. But who is the authority, the inspector, who will watch over it and make sure, forever and eternally, that it is following these rules and hasn’t violated the trust? I don’t know any immortals who will be the inspectors for me.
I drove somewhere at random yesterday, thinking that I just felt restless and wanted to drive around. I am so exhausted, I can barely walk, and yet, I’m going to work a lot more hours this week. It is unbearable. Living this way is unbearable, and it needs to change. I need a long term plan. I was thinking I would drive someplace quiet, and sit there and think of a plan. But I drove to some gamelands, and was being relentlessly attacked by gangstalkers, and I also wasn’t very far away from a cell phone tower at all, which I didn’t realize. I was within spitting distance of a cell phone tower, so I did not get away from electromagnetic background noise at all. I only noticed it when I went back home and saw the tower at night, with the flashing lights on it, as I was driving the opposite direction. I had gone past it and not noticed it in the daytime, when I didn’t see the flashing lights on it.
I was seeing endless acres of aralia nudicaulis, related to ginseng, which I wanted to do some testing with. I wanted to test whether it was possible to cut off pieces of a live plant, then replant the plant into the ground and have it continue to grow, because this is what I want to do with ginseng. This was a very large, huge, old-growth colony of aralia. The roots had several years of growth rings on them. I picked one, but I didn’t try to replant any part of it, I am only testing it to see what medicinal effects it has. So far, I would describe it as ‘nothing at all’ or ‘very little’ medicinal effect. However, it is still worthwhile to figure out how to cut pieces and replant them. All that it does is make my stomach feel empty, burning, and upset.
I was thinking about organ meats, and thinking about drying organ meats in my car, the way I dried other things. I have been told that people don’t ever dry organ meats because they spoil. Why? Is it because there is fat integrated with the meat, which prevents all the water from drying out quickly? Could I mix things with it to act as an antioxidant? If so, would I mix water soluble, or fat soluble, antioxidants? Water soluble ones would be in fruits, like cherries in pemmican. By the way, I saw a grapevine flowering this morning, and I was all happy about it. This is a disconnected, partial happiness, because I cannot completely enjoy anything at all having to do with native plants, when I am still cut off from my cats, who I can barely walk over to see, because I have been so sick and so exhausted I can barely walk.
I think some of my sickness is probably from the gypsy moth spray. I need to buy some probiotics. I did buy some ox bile, but haven’t tested it yet. I want to test it when I eat some kind of fat that I ACTUALLY WANT to absorb! It’s not worthwhile to test the ox bile with fats that I don’t actually want, like vegetable oil used for frying fast foods. Instead, I would test the ox bile pills (which I would open up and only use a small amount of) with canned sockeye salmon. I would buy the smaller can, not the larger can. This has a whole lot of grease in it, the best fat that you can, with lots of omega-3 in it, and lots of REAL vitamin D in it. That’s what I WANT to absorb, so I would test my ox bile with that. I have been having this chronic diarrhea and pale-colored stools for WEEKS, and I have correlated this with gypsy moth spray in the past, but it also seems like I could have a parasitic infection, too. I only nibbled the pawpaw twigs one time, and would have to do it again, but they’re buried in a bag in the back of my car. I need to clean out the car, because stuff is piled up and I can’t get what I need out of there. The WAY back is contaminated with a combination of convenia and ephedra. That’s why I’m not using the way back. I only use that for transporting things to storage.
I was thinking of testing the sundrying of something with a lot of fat, like organ meats, or the leftover bit of sockeye salmon from the smallest can they had available, since I still won’t be able to eat a whole can at once, even a small can. I could mix it with antioxidants from leaves and fruits. Would beta carotene work? It isn’t the same as vitamin A. If I had ground-up carrot powder or carrot juice, that’s beta carotene. Is beta carotene fat soluble for real, or is only real vitamin A fat soluble? Beta carotene is in a water-containing root vegetable. Anyway, I also thought of vitamin K. Vitamin K is in organic butter lettuce, which comes in a large package from the grocery store. I could sundry butter lettuce. I could have dried, powdered lettuce leaves mixed with sockeye salmon. I don’t want to use lemons – they are so acidic that I can’t bear to eat anything that’s been soaked in lemon juice. I am seeing a hundred million wild cherry trees and birdcherries, which I can’t wait to try, along with the wild grapes that were so great when I made them into sweetened grape juice, the best grape juice that I’ve ever had in my life. But I don’t have them right now, so I would have to use grocery store fruits for this experiment. The idea is, use any antioxidants at all, from fruits, vegetables, and spices, and mix it all in with whatever organ meats or sockeye salmon that I’m drying, as long as the flavor is tolerable and edible. Lettuce is so mild and flavorless, it wouldn’t ruin the flavor. Butter lettuce is the only one that lists a large amount of vitamin K on the RDA label.
There is no long-term plan, but I can tell you now, life is unbearable and it’s going to get worse, and a long-term plan is going to have to happen. I will have to switch to a sit-down job that makes a lot more money for the number-counting game, because I am in too much pain to work EVEN LONGER hours at fast food jobs, which is what I will have to do – TWO JOBS is the ONLY WAY to survive here. I would have to work back-to-back two fast food jobs, on my feet that are in so much agony I cannot even WALK, while my knee joints are arthritic and in pain, and I can’t take care of myself, can’t decontaminate, can’t take showers, can’t do enough laundry, can’t test different kinds of hair conditioners to see if this particular conditioner is giving me arthritis, can’t control what I’m eating because I have no place to STORE AND PREPARE FOOD, can’t eat a healthy diet to troubleshoot my arthritis, can’t troubleshoot this annoying weight gain – and so, walking on my feet for long hours is UNBEARABLE and I cannot live this way. It is ONLY GOING TO GET WORSE if I work even longer hours at a second fast food job. WHAT IS THE LONG-TERM PLAN to make life bearable?